It's hard to not be bitter.

This job stuff is all I write about and I apologize for that. I've applied for over 25 jobs and each time my motivation is smaller because I am bitter than I am even still doing it. The only reason that I do is because I LIVE to teach. It is something that makes me happy. Teaching at Memorial this past few weeks I feel on cloud nine then I come home and remember that part of my email-checking routine includes checking every job site known to man and generally finding nothing.
I hesitant to post all of this because I feel guilty about the way that I feel, but yesterday... I find out through facebook that Anne and Andrew both got interviews in Barron. It's a full-time HS Band position 45 minutes from my parents and essentially feels like my last hope. Now, they are both GREAT people and good friends of mine, but are they really more deserving of an interview? I've revised my letters/resume millions of times, people have read them, I have gotten 2 interviews...This is extreme possibly, but--Is it because I'm not married??? It doesn't appear that I will settle down there?? Everywhere else won't take me because I don't have experience, but I'll never get it because schools know that I won't be staying long. I'm stuck.
I just went downstairs and rehashed all of this with Lindsay Bertz who dropped off my check from when I taught summer school at locust lane for her. I hate saying the same things over and over to people, but especially people like her need to realize how lucky they are! She has a full-time, non-traveling teaching position in EAU CLAIRE! That's much different than my situation. She's a good listener so I just kept going on and on. Kind of like I did with Brian Hilson at Morgan music today. :)

Time to head to Menomonie and give Scott the tenor I found for him. Reeds and mouthpieces are SOOO overpriced in EC that it's ridic and mom's just going to have to order online. They are literally twice the online price!! what the heck? Some much needed TLC from mom then back early enough to finish my Middleton application before bed. Two more days of Memorial then back to my depressing, non-education filled life.