Sorry for the delay!

Soooo it's been what? 3 weeks? That's pretty sad. Like I've said before...I used to be at writing in these things. A lot has happened but still most of same news. I had thought that I'd be subbing by now and that with the physical things would move quicker. It still took forever! Well, with all the interviews, paperwork, TB tests, physical, and orientation all coming to an end...I accepted my first job. I'm subbing for this Elizabeth Soules character. This totally white teacher from Falk Elementary who submerges herself daily in the Madtown ghetto. Then I also already had a request for the 20th for another elem. music teacher who Liz and I don't know. Kinda weird.
Working out is so exhausting. It's hard to keep a regular schedule, but mostly hard to be patient. I want to drop weight fast enough to stay motivated! We've done pretty well exercising over the week, but then every weekend something is going on.
Last weekend was extended for me. I drove up to Chippewa Falls on Wednesday and subbed for the afternoon for Tim and Christine. Whenever I'm at that school the kids make me feel so welcome. I know mostly they know Becky and any young sub with a familiar face and history with the program is going to be better than some crotchity old lady. It makes my desire to teach there even stronger and I can't afford to think about it for months. I believe the plan is to apply there after Feb. 15th and so until then I need to just do my thing. Sub, lose weight, make money, get things in order!
After subbing I drove to Menomonie and spent the night with the fam. It is so much nicer to go home alone. When we all 3 go home together it's as though they can't afford to listen to all of us, so they pretty much ignore us. I hate it when I go home and feel like nobody notices that it's unusual. For years now I have been acutely aware of that fact that I don't live there anymore and it makes visits more important so when you feel invisible it totally sucks. BUT this time was great. Dan and Christa (plus Morgan!) stayed for dinner and I thought that was lucky, but Morgan ended up being there the whole next day. I stayed until 3pm or so Thursday because I couldn't get a sub job again in Chippewa. Spending a whole day with mom and Morgan is a wonderful sort of therapy. Morgan is smiling SO much now. Last I saw her you had to work so hard! So between getting to absorb some baby magic, I got LOTS of time to have meaningless and meaningful conversation. Then I went to EC and spent a few hours at Collin's and showered before heading to SAI pledging ceremony.
That was cool. I didn't know any of the girls, but 4 is a good Fall number. Only Rachel and Abby knew I was coming, and that goes for Becky, too! It took everything for me to not tell her I was coming, especially when I was in Menomonie/Chippewa the last two days. Her face was pretty funny and then Angela started crying and jumped up on me. Perkins was delicious and it's great to spend time with the girls. Joynt briefly afterward and then a group of us partied at Becky's until 3am. Friday I sort of bummed around EC a little bit-watched some Jazz I rehearsal, went to the old Dollar Tree, went to the bank, etc. Then Becky, Rick, and I had a quick silly hangout session before they got on the BMB bus to Chicago. I drove around looking for Memorial's homecoming parade and was confused until I got home and saw on the school website that it was cancelled. It was barely even raining! Sooo, then Collin and I split a pitcher at the Joynt, popped come Big Red, and went to the HS football game.
It was SO great to see everyone. I love Memorial and the kids and I feel like...ecstacy. I miss teaching, I love seeing how much some of them have grown up, who's dating who, the kids coming back from college, the marching show, etc. But I feel like I'm in desperate need of a job so that I can not have to feel like such a loser for being obsessed with the one group of kids I've worked with for an extended period of time. I just feel so attached to them. I love them. And I think that should be something that I'm proud of and see it as a good thing. But it comes off more pathetic and I just really need to have a constant stream of students in front of me so I don't have to start missing them so damn much!! I think it's also that my life is moving so slow right now and Eric and everyone in school seems to be flying by at such a quick (and much more exciting) pace.
Friday night after the game BJ, Collin, and I went out for Collin's birthday and whoa, we got DRUNK. BJ kept buying shots, Collin kept buying pitchers. I literally spent $3. We went to the House of Rock to see the Walk/Klenz Sextet and that was a blast. Danced a lot with Callie and her mother in law-haha. I'm pretty sure Mrs. Power could tell I was getting pretty tipsy. Collin ended up passing out in my car after delusions at the GI so BJ and I could keep going until Bar close. Then BJ says, "Hey. Weren't you guys like...drink for drink?" Yes. Yes we were. And I ended up staying up until 5am playing Sega with Brandon Covelli. I am amazed at my post graduation abilities sometimes. Although, it is likely directly linked to how fast I am going gray this year.
SO, now I NEED to start subbing. I've had way to much time on my hands. The guilt of the debt is really starting to weigh on me and I'm feeling very unsettled and anxious about getting more behind before I'm able to pull it all back together. I feel like I'm trying hard one minute and feel like the laziest sonofa betch other times.
Well, none of this was funny so again I wonder why I write. I thank Becky for writing. Her crap has been really funny. It's embarrassing that I don't write more considering the excess time I have had for a month. We're going to eat with Kyle Peterson and his girlfriend tomorrow. I can't wait to get a social life down here! Between working and knowing people here I won't be so tempted to haul up to EC to get my social fix. That's been the biggest adjustment to being here. In EC I had a very irregular schedule in that I'd run into people one day, different people the next, big party here, sai social there, lunch with so-and-so, and rehearsals, etc. Even while student teaching and subbing we had girls nights and pub crawls and concerts. We've had visitors every weekend we've been here, but I think it's the impromtu, semi-regular flow of social interactions that I am used to. Liz and I have fun-don't get me wrong. But a lot of it involves sega, Drop Dead Diva, Biggest Loser, and Intervention. In general, TV. Adoption Diaries, Family Guy, 2 and a Half Men, So You Think You Can Dance, etc. I need to be running around a school all day, work out and then watch TV when I deserve it! Bah....15-20lbs need to disappear before Pat's wedding. I've been talking to Erin's bridesmaid Whitney a lot about the bachelorette party. My main concern is letting loose and meeting back up with Pat and his bachelor party. I have never seen my brother drunk and it can't happen soon enough. Can't wait. Gonna be great.
Well. It's 1am. I went to bed at 11pm but had to get up and eat because I was hungry enough that I couldn't sleep. I had only eaten 1275 calories today....HAD eaten... :) I should be able to go to sleep now. So, I'll try to write again within a day or two. In the meantime, MORE FROM BECKY?!